i really have not been bothered to blog lately and when i have it has been short and sweet. (well maybe not that short) the rheumatoid arthritis has been annoying me lately, so with this and my break up with Jude,. then of course my boy Nath, who speaks to me one night then the next night rings and does not want to see or speak to. has had my head in a bit of a turmoil. yet the poor kid himself is that confused himself, so now i just wait for him to contact me. at least now the arthritis is easing off,, still a bit of pain. but not as severe as over the weekend. so things are on the improve, the sooner the better as i want to get out and do some gardening. "SMILES"